From My Perspective

You are The High Priestess

Science, Wisdom, Knowledge, Education.

The High Priestess is the card of knowledge, instinctual, supernatural, secret knowledge. She holds scrolls of arcane information that she might, or might not reveal to you. The moon crown on her head as well as the crescent by her foot indicates her willingness to illuminate what you otherwise might not see, reveal the secrets you need to know. The High Priestess is also associated with the moon however and can also indicate change or fluxuation, particularily when it comes to your moods.

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i am so sorry that it took me so long to realize this.  i guess i really have to go.  i can’t stay anymore,  not at this time, not in this situation.  i’ve done my part, my purpose now irrelevant. 

my last words: i am just a phone away.

lately, i’ve been thinking a lot.  this has become a bit problematic because my mind’s already getting tired of processing and re-processing thoughts.  it actually is already giving me headaches.  i already feel so stressed and i think i am catching illness with this.  so please let me steam off here.  snowball thoughts at its best. 

first off, i had started my daily travel to diliman this week.  if last week i was already too stressed out that i almost couldn’t stand up from bed during the weekend, that is nothig to what i experienced this week.  it seems harmless and not really energy-consuming when you look at it but believe me, the seemingly innocuous hour travel to diliman for just a subject a day, doing it for four days a week is too much. i feel like my body is already giving up on me.  it feels like my muscles are too sore to move.  it feels like my bones have already turned into jellies.  hgow can i dance again with this situation? i wonder. 

and speaking of which, i badly misses dancing.  and the people i dance with.  i miss the rehearsals, i miss the choreos, i miss moving with the beat and the rhythm.  i miss everyone and everything.  i just hope i can still find time to do the sayaw manila for the last time. 

i said i want to dance in sayaw manila but how can i find time for rehearsals given that i have to  finish my thesis, do my portfolio and publish a magazine? maygawd.  everything’s eating up my time.  sometimes, i feel like i want to givewe up pjma.  but thinking about finishing the school year without them is way too sad to bear.  so i guess i’m stuck with the three major responsibilities and tons and tons of minor ones for the rest of my school year.

then there’re still some things i can’t help but think about.  in some ways, given their trivial existence, they shouldn’t add up to my stress but heck, they do.  oni-chan told me that i am a bad speaker.  what can i do? i speak the language so i can get myself practiced on the craft but i still can’t talk like vjs do.  i feel inadequate. i love the language though and i still speak it.  i just canl’t help but feel sad whenever i think of how bad i am in speaking after all those courses i’ve taken up in my last three and a half year in orcom.  ma’am sarile and ma’am adeva won’t be proud of me.

i just remember how i badly want a new mailman bag.  but i don’t want just any mailman bag.  i want something like my mom’s.  unfortunately, she won’t give hers to me.  hay.  well, yesterday, bry and i went to ukay shop.  in one of the stores, i saw an LV bag. it ain’t a mailman bag but i liked the style.  i didn’t get it though because i hate using obvious fakes. i wonder now how to spot the real thing in ukay shops.

and i hate going to classes these days.  sembreak hangover.

but i love these lines i saw in peyups.  welcome to the academe,

you are laughing because you are looking at the viewpoint of ignorance. – history II

“Kaya nga ideal eh, hindi siya nangyayari sa totoong buhay. Pero an approximation is good enough” – sir engle, on ideal and real systems .

“Meanings we find are the meanings we make.” 

“religion is a successful economic institution” 

“Class, kaya mahal ang bayad sa mga professors sa ibang school kasi ang bobobo ng mga estudyante dun. Dyuskoh, I used to teach there… at lumuluha talaga ako ng dugo bago maintindihan ng mga students yung sinasabi ko. Ang mahal nga ng bayad, magkakasakit ka naman sa panga kakaulit ng lessons! Wag na lang! Dito na ko sa UP, at least nagkakaintindihan tayo. Diba?” 

If you really love someone, just act like a swan; once he finds his mate, he will never find anyone else. But when his lover goes away, he dies because he thinks that his life no longer has purpose in this world.”

“The value of something is because… IT’S NOT YOURS!”
(Referring to Barker’s Experiment on Frustration-Aggression)

“Hindi siya totoo. Ang hindi totoo, inferior.”
(On hallucination)

“If they don’t fit, don’t push!”
(On puzzles, paradigms, and the socio-historical view of science) 

“As a lover you should be like glucose…. simple but sweet.” 

Kinumpara ang Orcom sa UP at DLSU ng prof:
“We do the thinking, they do the dirty work!”