rawr!

January 4, 2009 at 7:41 pm (thoughts)

fa•vor•ite

(noun)

  1. a person or thing regarded with special favor or preference
  2. Sports: a competitor considered likely to win
  3. a person or thing popular with the public
  4. a person treated with specialor undue favor by a king

(adjective) regarded with particular favor or preference.

i used to love this word.  it was my fave for some reasons i couldn’t put into words.  i just knew i feel happy thinking about the word and what that word means.  and i was happier hearing the way it sounded in my ears.  the way it seemed to be rolling smoothly into my auditory channel and reaching my neurons with heightening bliss. 

and i felt stronger affection for the word when i read the following lines in a book i dearly love, (i paraphrased)

“well, you are my favorite,”  i said.  “you are my favorite, too.”

translation: they intensely feel for each other.

but.. the word just lost its flare.  not entirely but just the same. it doesn’t make me smile as it used to.  the meaning is still endearing to me yet the word itself doesn’t elicit the same rreaction from my overworked neurons.  i stopped having a fave word until..

yesterday, i was feeling an all-time low and i was telling this to bryan.  with me being simultaneously vague and ambiguous throughout that text conversation session,   bryan was at lost of words to reply.  thus, he texted me the only lexison his sleepy neurons could conjure.  he texted “rawr!“.  weirdly, it made me smile a real smile.  neither the textmessage nor the word had special meaning.  heck, it doesn’t have any meaning at all!  but it sounds wild and fierce [well, it's an onomatopoeia of a lion's roar].  and recently, i am feeling intense affinity for the “wild” and the “fierce”, especially in *secret*.  upon closer look, i realized that the word, if it even qualifies as a word, brings tingling memories of those another instances where the ‘wild’ and the ‘fierce’ apply.  it is the association that makes me happy whenever i hear or read rawr.  that is where it got its appeal, that is its ‘deeper meaning’. 

ohwell, im really just blabbering here.  i just want to say “tell me the magic word whenever i feel down”.  you already know what it is.  RAWR!

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