Hunches
Status: Pure hunch or pure paranoia?
How do you ignore your hunches that bug you with their alarming negativity? How do you try to act like nothing is going wrong when you know very well that ignored hunches doesn’t stop the coming doom?
I’ve been connecting with lots of people in the past week, my calendar full of scheduled trips and meet-ups. But even with the presence of everyone, I am still alone and lonely. Tons and tons of people around and not one of them is the presence I crave. Ironically, it’s the one presence that is drifting away.
I am afraid he’ll continuously slip away. I hope not, I could only hope not.
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He just called. He made iiiit! 
He passed his checkpoint. I am damn proud of that guy. I have always been, will always be. Add the fact that he called me after he got the result, when he was still crying with bliss, I am also on the cloud nine Forget the fact that he called other people, too. Haha. I have to get out of this.
The paradox of being with him is, If I want to stay with him, I must let him go.
