Only to be back again.

Moved Out.

danacamille — Fri, 04 Mar 2011 14:06:45 +0000

Not updating this site anymore. Too cluttered and too heavy with wasted and too personal emotions, I just can’t bear to write more. It simply is weighing me down. This will continue to house my past though.

Friends, go here instead for a view of a better version of my thoughts

For Starters

danacamille — Mon, 24 Jan 2011 09:36:12 +0000

There was a time when doing bulletin surveys was the fad. Everyone would answer one, two or more, depending on the level of boredom and procrastination powers. They’d reveal what they ate this morning, the color of their undies and who their last sex was. It was interesting, really, if you want to know how absurd some of your friends really are (but you probably already know that. Why, you are friends with them)

And because I cannot for the life of me write a decent post, let me warm myself up for the next ten working days with this:

Day 1 – Ten things you want to say to ten different people.

Day 2 – Nine things about yourself.

Day 3 – Eight different ways to win your heart.

Day 4 – Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day 5 – Six things you wish you’ve never done.

Day 6 – Five people that mean a lot to you.

Day 7 – Four turn offs.

Day 8 – Three turn ons.

Day 9 – Two smileys that describe your life right now.

Day 10 – One confession.

I hope to get this done. Interestingly.

I am back. At least I try to be.

danacamille — Tue, 18 Jan 2011 15:57:57 +0000

I just came back from the Sinulog trip with my officekada. It was fun as fun could possibly get. It was my first experience and I would’ve wanted to document it through a decent blog post. But I am having such a hard time crafting one after three months of not touching this blog. I am seriously bothered by this incapability now. Lately, it seems that the only thing I am good writing about are my rants and whines. Like now. My hands are on a whirl as I type this jibberjabber of a rant but a while ago when I was trying my hand on the Cebu post, I would stop to think of words and phrases every effin second.

But I’d still give it a try. I challenge myself to come up with at least a half decent blog post and I swear it will be up soon or I will kill myself trying.

A photo of us to inspire meh:

Circle of friendship, Cebu version

Is Cami still Cami?

danacamille — Wed, 12 Jan 2011 12:11:45 +0000

Am I the same person? I don’t know. I really don’t know.

So I listed down some things to help me decide:

* I have a tattoo on my right wrist, a tattoo that encapsulates my life, only it is written in an angle that not most people would understand: No one can get me

* I still work in the same company. I am with this group since I left the university and I don’t see myself leaving them anytime soon. I love them and I wish they already realized they have no other choice but to love me.

* I cut my hair short. It ends at the middle of my nape. But it’s nothing compared to what I did next -

* I had it treated to fall straight. Bye curls I so loved.

* I have teeth brackets on. Dinosaur teeth no more.

* I am no longer in love with my first love. That says too much!

* I am now with somebody else who for the life of me, I can’t say whether my situation become better or worse. It is THAT complicated.

* But at least he puts effort on making me happy. Every now and then – at least.

* And he tells me he loves me. And he’s happy being with me. And he makes plans on bringing me to places. And says maybe I am the mom of his adorably cutecutecute baby. LOLWUT?! But that made me kileeg, siryusli.

* I still love chocolates. In fact, I am craving one right now.

* I haven’t read so much books lately.

* But I started watching animes, tv series, and movies.

So… do you think I am still the same person?

I very well think I am. Them move and them actions, they are very much Cami-like.

Breaking in.

danacamille — Mon, 10 Jan 2011 07:39:32 +0000

I have been dodging my need to write a decent post, one that at least will have me thinking and splurting a thousand words. This laziness is awesome but I know that at one point or anther, I’d have to go back here again and do things that I do, which actually is just to rant, vent and whine. Sometime last week I bought myself a book of brain quizzes, one that really does involve using the brains, and it saddened the hell out of me that I only got the average rating. The Eff with my mathematical skills and analytic rustiness. I really need to be more acquainted with the Mensa books and try to at least get half of my old sharpness back. Said so, I’d never want to lose my writing ~*~skillz~*~ as well, thus I am vandalizing my blog again.

You know that rusty feeling you have when you try riding a bicycle again after years of neglecting it in the basement? That’s exactly how this is. But as they say, once you learned it, you’ll never un-. So I guess I’ll have to deal with unintelligible ramblings once again until I get back on the wheels with confidence.

Quote

danacamille — Fri, 07 Jan 2011 05:05:41 +0000

“When something isn’t right, your intuition keeps trying to let you know
by putting nagging doubts in your mind as well as continual anxiety.
This is a gut thing, and your gut is rarely wrong.”

Bob Strauss

You do what you do.

danacamille — Thu, 30 Dec 2010 16:12:53 +0000

For full months I’ve abandoned my sanctuary. In the hot, fast pursuit of another that I hoped would fulfill me like no other. I was wrong, of course. I knew from the start how the ending would be. Exactly like this, exactly like what is happening. But I chased anyway. With effort like an championed Olympian. With dedication like worker ants. With vision like Old Testament prophets.

How does the saying go? That you have to experience mistake to know it’s indeed a mistake. Sometimes sayings like that help me prove people my frail point. Even if the point is – I am well aware – pointless.

Let’s call it a lapse of better judgment.

danacamille — Thu, 25 Nov 2010 10:17:55 +0000

I guess this is another case of seeing the end before anything has ever begun.

I guess the turbulence will pass. It will be sunny once again on your side of the world. Mine will be a bit wrecked in havoc but nothing too damaged to be un-mendable.

I guess in time everyone will forget how we were once connected.

I guess it is simply a lapse in better judgment. But all will be right now.

Gulong ng Buhay

danacamille — Wed, 24 Nov 2010 11:35:48 +0000

Ganyan talaga buhay

For those who are asking, I tell you, Yes, that is my boss holding the umbrella while I cross my arms like a bitch. Ganyan talaga buhay, minsan pinag-oovertime ka ng boss mo sa trabaho, minsan tagahawak mo lang sya ng payong kapag umuulan.

Shot. Shot. Shotshot!

danacamille — Wed, 24 Nov 2010 11:17:41 +0000

And so I had been away for so long. Don’t worry, I have no plans yet of coming back. I simply am too tired to splurge out on words I couldn’t afford. But just so I wouldn’t make you feel left out of my life, this one, which greatly encapsulates my life, is for you:

Shot. Shot. Shot. Shot.

PS I know I look a little shitty, maybe a little like a.. a whore, but I swear I haven’t yet turned into one. Yet.