steaming off and trying to forget a bad day
1. i am reading another person’s blog. and i am enjoying what i am doing. it is always interesting to read another person’s thoughts, the events in his/her life, his/her perceptions. i wanna know the things another person categorized as trivial or important. i wanna know things that i normally am not aware of if not for that blog. i wanna know what are happening to another person’s life. in simple words, ang tsismosa ko lang.
the only thing that i am wondering about is this: why is it that other people’s blog always seemingly more interesting than mine? whenever i read my blog, i can’t help but rate it inferior of another person’s. is it because i already know what my blog has to say [malamang, ako writer ng blog na'to ee.] or my life is simply uninteresting? whatever. i’ll try to figure this out then i’ll let you know the answer.
2. i went to UST Central Library today. they call the building Miguel de Buenavidez Library. it is a huge building with six or seven levels. the fee is one hundred for off-campus users [namulubi ako. ang mahal, di ko naman nasulit kasi less than two hours lang kami sa library na yun]. i can’t really say the library is beautiful though. fine, it is a bit superior than the UP Manila Main library if you want to talk about the facilities. And yes, it is superior with the UPM main lib if we are pertaining to the number of books the library has stored. but the service is kinda well, how do we say it, uhm.. slow. and i really mean slow here. one has to undergo long process just to get a book. if you want to photocopy a part of the book, you have to ask for a form from the counter and fill it with the needed information before you can go back to the ground floor where the photocopying booth is located. unfortunately, the section i went to was in the sixth floor [in fairness, may elevator naman sila so di ako napagod magakyat-baba. kaya lang, katulad ng serbisyo nila, naknakan din ng bagal nung elevator].
BUT i have to give it to them. panalo ang koleksyon nila ng journals! sobrang nagenjoy ako dun sa mga journals nila. kung di nga lang ako nangangailangan umalis kaagad [dahil sa job interview na di ko rin naman napuntahan, mananatili ako doon para lamang magbasa ng journals].
3. Ryan and his girl friend broke up yesterday. he just texted me about it today.
4. feb 16 pala birthday ni ralph. this info is for those who are fond of him. like some people i know.=)
5. i asked the thesaurus in MS Word for another term for “crush”. all the words i saw fell under these categories: squash, defeat, devastate, press, and suppress. no terms nor a category for “like”. funny, after twelve years of using the word crush, it is only today that i realized how the word “crush” to mean “like” is nonexistent.
i remember my philo I class this college. how a word is arbitrary and the nonexistence of the logical connection between the word and the thing or idea this word is pertaining to. our professor made it clear that it is the convention that gives a thing or an idea its name. [eg, people call the thing with four legs and can be seat on as a chair because the convention dictates that it is a chair. otherwise, the convention can also dictate the-thing-we-call-now-a-chair to be named hotdog if the every one agrees on it. ]
after a decade of saying “i have a crush on ___.” and after many years that english-spokening people use the word crush with blushing cheeks and after almost everyone recognizes the word “crush” to mean like [and usually in conversations, the term like is the only term associated with the term crush], why doesn’t the thesaurus do the same?
6. i bought a new [ and my third] pair of red shoes. which lea insists on calling “happy shoes” because it has ribbons on the back. whatever it is called, i am definitely happy to have it.
7. i like the song “mood 4 Lovin” in the pringles u pop contest. i do think it is good. watch it and vote for it. i am no musician but i know how to appreciate good music. go, dreadspot!
8. i hate the key board in this net cafe. [wag na yung name nung net cafe. baka awayin ako. kilala pa mandin ako dito].
9. swear, yung next post ko, tagalog na.
of crush, friends and contact lens
a variation of the randomness of the random musings. only this time, i exerted some effort to categorize my ideas and thoughts for easy understanding. but yea, snowball post this still is.
resume
people are passing their resumes to their target companies, and to their not-target companies for that matter. whatever. my point here is that people are busy making things for their future and here i am blogging my life away. i just can’t help it. i am too lazy to send out my cv’s to companies out there because i feel like my experiences, or lack of it, and knowledge are insufficient to make me survive the jungle out there. i actually have drafted a copy of my resume. but i am feeling like is not really good. most of my activities were done during high school. most of the activities i participated during the first three years of my college life were for UPM streetdance. not that i have any regrets but i just couldn’t put
- danced in sayaw manila 3 – jan 20, 2007
- danced in PE Recital first semester 07-08 – sept 25, 2007
- danced in sayaw manila 4 – jan 26, 2007
- ….
- ….
- ….
in my cv. those activities are so unrelated to my target career. they might just laugh at my attempt to get into their company. i am afraid. i am afraid.
contact lens
boo boy. i bought a new pair of contact lenses today. and i hate it.
the color is gray and it was actually ok looking though the green one was better for me. but the color wasn’t the big news yet. it was the PWR [whatever the PWR means. anyway, i was referring to the thing called grado in tagalog]. i asked for a 2.75 and they gave me a pair with 2.75 PWR. i thought everything was ok. i was happy. i immediately went to the restroom to change my lenses after i purchased it.
BOOM! i was sooo disappointed. i didn’t get better vision. for those who couldn’t follow what i was talking about, read this. my previous contact lenses, the green one, were way past their expiration date. i had been using them for a year now but the product was actually good only for six months. [i didn't throw them immediately because aside from the fact that they were still usable, i didn't have money to replace them]. the green pair were still usable though my vision were getting awful as months past the expiration passed by. anyway, i thought when i get to have a new pair, my vision will greatly improve. boy, how utterly wrong i was. my vision didn’t improve.
it was too late when i realized that it was already a year and a half since i last had my eye check up. since that time, my vision went worse. i bet these two eyes are now requiring 350 PWR. so yes, my new contact lens are way too low on the PWR than what my eyes actually requires. these new contact lens are practically useless. i just wasted money.
how disappointing.
Crush
i like nerd-looking guys. they have this x factor that draws me to them. they are smart, intelligent and sensible. it is as if they can be everything. thus reliable.
i like ado. i was telling this to people but nobody believed me until yesterday. it was actually funny making them believe that i really like ado and he isn’t just an escape goat. i liked miah. now, you can see the trend. i like those nerd guys in television series. i love watching beauty and the geek. i truly love tyson from the new season.
why bother with those good-looking, egoistic guys when you can have someone sensible, reliable, easy-going, fun-to-be-with guys around you? another thing, they have higher loyalty rate.
friends.
i just have to tell you that i love it that i can talk with them now. it feels good to have new friends. i loved it when zappie told me she misses me. it feels good whenever nikki and i laugh at things. it always feels good to have new friends you can talk to. the only problem i have is that we are from different worlds. haha! really. orcommunicology speaking, we have two ultimately different schemata. our fields of experience are too different that the overlap is actually too small. i hope we can make it bigger through time though. haha! there were times i was so clueless of what to say. i don’t know how to react on certain things. i don’t know how they perceive things. the uncertainty is still quite high. i hope we can lessen the uncertainty through further communication. i hope. i hope.
i already love them though.
